Xmas Break

I wish wish wish wish wish I could be going home for christmas today. I watch everyone packing their stuff and telling their friends good bye and a happy holidays. I watch all the parents come and give their kids a big hug, because they are so happy to see them. All the kids are smiling and saying I'm so happy to be going home. Yet, me all I can do is watch and feel down, because I can't go home, well not till the 23rd. Since I'm on the swim team and we are "in season" our coaches are allowed to make us stay longer over xmas break. Swimming already takes up so much of my life I never get to go home on weekends cause of meets and practice, and well I live a little over 3 hours away. I swim mornings and afternoons so I'm not able to call my family as much or my friends. Really swimming is most of my life, well it seems. Now, finally a break finally a time to see my family and friends whom I haven't seen since August. Yet, no we have to stay and ruin our break and swim. Then to make it even better we don't get to stay the rest of the break, o no. We get to come back a week early on January 2nd and just swim the rest of that week. I knew I would have to be at ball state for some part of my break but not for more then half of it. I just think it's unfair for our coaches to make us stay later and then come back earlier, just choose one. I would still swim at home with my high school team, and their practices are just as hard. I want to be able to enjoy my life and relax! Also, girls who live more then 4 hours away are being able to go home early since they can't see their family as much. I live just 45 minutes closer, and 3 hours is a long drive for me too. It makes me mad that they are now playing favorites and some girls can go home while others can't. UGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!! F.Y.I. swimming is so not fun!